Day 4: March 8, 2013

Today I drove 30 miles one way to watch my son perform a percussion ensemble lasting less than one minute.

To many reading this, including myself, this seems completely ridiculous and a massive waste of time and energy. When you consider the value of time in our day, the wear and tear on your car, and the cost of gas, this energy spent is not equal to a 50 or so second performance. And since I work hard to drive myself crazy with massive amounts of rationale, this situation could easily spin me out of control.

But you know what? I loved every second of it.

And this shocked me.

But the cool thing is, I realized that I am growing. I am letting go of the details and just living in the moment. I loved every second I spent riding in silence in the car (it was early) with my teen. I relished in the fact that I could be there with him and for him. And even if it wasn’t a huge deal to him, I was thankful for that chance to watch and listen to my son demonstrate his musical talent and the ease at which he just shows up and gets things done.

I am blessed.

And I’m really starting to figure out just how much.

And God has shown me that my getting caught up in details has blinded me to the opportunities to embrace life and love. And He wants me to stop building walls made out of what ifs and start climbing over the heaps of worry, guilt, and regret so I can see clearly the beauty right in front of me.

What a peaceful and joyful place He has put me.

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